Too much stress in only 1 day

Hi readers, I'm here, laying in my bed writing this post.
I'm not so fine now, I have strong stomac cramps, started esterday evening and now they are going on stronger.
I am sure that the manager is guilty, because she pushed me soo much, and the owner as well. Everytime they have somethings to say, everytme I am doing something wrong, everytime I am not good at work, but if that f***ing manager need a change of shift or if she needs someone to cover her, she calls me, and it i not true.
I am not a slave, I love that kind of job because it let me be in contact with people but I don't like to be seen, I don't like it. And now the manager and the owner use the CCTV to watch us every single moment.
We have it enought, it can't go on in this way, we are not machine, we are not robot!!!

Do you think the same? Do you think that this is correct? I know that this is job, but this is not the right way to make happy people going to work!

I have to change job, I have to find another job that makes me happy, that makes me feel good.

Ok, for now I have nothing to tell, so I'm going to sleep a little hoping that my stomac cramps will finish soon because I want to go out this evening.

Sometime is different

Hi readers, this time I am here after a night in a club, I am so f***ing tired...It is normal, you could think, but it is not true.
Yesterday I went out with my housemates after 3 weeks without doing party.
The place was so nice, it was in Piccadilly Institue, a club in the center of Piccadilly.
If you go there you  can see, the place...really amazing the music was so good, even if I prefer hip hop music, but it was very very good, everyone there danced, everyone there drank a lot..XD...everywhere in UK on Friday night is drunk, and Saturday night as well. Well, almost all night you can find drunk people in London. It is strange because I am not used to see drunk people all days.

The party was really nice, at the beginning the party was only for the Pret a Manger Staff, so one of my housemate went there because she works in Pret.
After 20pm the party was open to everyone, but I speak a little bit with this girl and she said that almost all of the people who were there worked for Pret and I was like OMG!!!
Really, a lot of people in the club.

After party we went back early because we were tired, and some of us have to go to work the day after, so for example I have to go to work, I have the evening shift, but I needed to rest more than 3 hours...XD

Another news is that from today I will be a Supervisor, so my wage is high, I have more responsabilities but for me it is ok. It means more money for me, and more money to save that let me go to New York asap.
I really need to go there, I know that I will love that place and I know that I will never leave that place.
Do you think like me?
Write me what you want to know, and talk about your experiences...
Now I will see a movie to relax me more before going to work.

What I have to do?

Hi readers, I'm here again to talk a little bit about dreams, as everyone knows, my dream is going to live in New York, to move there and settle down.
Few days ago I was explaining to my housemate how can she find a job as aupair, and how I try to find it, and we were looking families in USA, and we saw a family in New York who is looking for an aupair to start in September or October, we was so exicited about it, because the famil is half italian half russian. We start to talk about this, how could have to be, being and aupair in USA, in the Big Apple.
I was thinking about sending a message to the family, to ask if I could be good for them as aupair. So after one day thinking about it a send that message, to ask information, and the reply the same night, positively, they explain a little bit more about the job and their lifestyle.
So now I am very confused.
What I have to do? I have to accept the job or not?
If I accept the job I have to start to look for the Working Holiday VISA or the Student VISA and looking also for some school that I could attend when I will be there.
But also I can stay here il London more than one year and after move to NY with my housemate.
Really, I don't know what I have to do, it is so strange...
I have to think more about it, because if I accept the job I will move to NY in September and I can stay here in London till August saving money to go to NY, because actually I don't have all that money that I will need.

What do you think about this?What do you think I have to do?
Give me your opinion.


I live you with this picture:

I'm not more alone

Hi readers, I have something new to tell to you.
Finally I found someone who has my same plans. I met a girl, one of my new housemates, an italian girl who is here in London to improve her English because she wants to go to USA to work. She has already got a job there, but the owner of the place where she will work said that she has to have a very high level off English.
She works here like hairstylist, and she will work in USA like hairstylist as well, but she needs to improve her English. So actuall in my hose there is 10 people (too much you can think but it is ok, because we are all friends). There are 5 girls e 5 boys, from 20 to 28 years old. We are all young.
The beauty thing is that we are all friends and often happen that we decide to go out in the evening all together to make party or to drink something. It is very good because even if we are almost all italians, we speak English thanks of our spanish flatmate Michael that go out with us almost all the times.
Anyway, I'm here to talk about something different, because now finally I am not more alone, I was thinking about my future and I always dreamd to go to USA to live, but alone is very difficult, because of the language, and everything is more difficult alone, but now I have this flatmate, Louisa that has the same plans, so next year I will move to New York or to Miami.
This is a very nice thing that makes me happy everytime I think about it, it' my dream that become reality.
So now I have to improve my English very very well, and to do this I have to start an English course and I have to speak almost all day long English.
Actually my English is not so bad, because I can see that it is become more fluently and because I make less mistakes than the beginning but actually it's not good enough.
So I start to read a book, a book that I read a lot of times in italian 'Harry Potter and the Philosopher Stone' it's sounds like nerd style but I grow up with Harry Potter and now I am a PotterHead...XD

However, now here it's dinner-time but I don't have the strenght to stand up from my bed and start cooking, I am so lazy today, and not only today, almost everyday....XD
But it's ok, because I am loosing weight and I am feeling better even if I am always tired 'cause of the work.

Maybe next time I will talk more about me, because it's time that you readers will discover who I am...are you curious?

Well, if you want to know something more, ask, maybe I will reply...or maybe not...  ;)

Something new...the BUN...

Hi readers, it is a lot of time without write anything, but now I have something new to tell you.
I tryed a special food from Malaysa, it is called bun, it is something like a bread, but it's better because there is a little bit butter inside, ad it has a crispy topping outside that tastes like coffee and caramel.
It is very very good, and the staff is amazing, I went there a night and there were one italian girl and one italian boy, so we could talk italian and they explain me about this kind of franchising.
This is the web site:
http://www.papparoti.ae/index.php

Talking with that guy I knew that Papa Roti is very famous in Midle East, but here in Uk this is the only branch, and maybe in Europe as well.
And I was like 'Oh my God, that is unbelievable!'
If you can, you will have to try, the bun is amazing, you can add syrup on the top, I ask half with chocolate andhalf with caramel, to feel the different taste, and I prefer caramel because it was too sweet, I love sweet things...XD
Not onl the bun was amazing, the coffee as well was really good, better than other place, I asked to the guy and they replyed me that the coffee is italian as well.


So if you pass by Queensway, you have to try Pappa Roti....

Why is this beautiful?

Everytime I'm looking inside me, to know if it is the right way, and I'm thinking about my life.  I'm always asking if I am happy now....and the reply is always the same...yes, I am happy, finally I'm sure that this will be my life...I'm feeling good.
I am at the right place at the right moment.
This is the right way

Why is this so beautiful?How can I know this?

I'm not afraid, I'm living my life, I'm choosing what to do. It could seems hard at the start, because it is something new, but after it could be easy.
This is my new city, this is my new life, and this is beautiful, this is something I have always dreamed about.
Everything is different, everything is better, people, street, restaurant, the air you breath,everything.

Everybody have dreamed about this once in their life, and I can tell that it is awesome, but nothing could be realize without a plan.
Everything have to be planned or it could be very difficult to realize. So, if you want to realize it, you have to plan everything, the most little thing too.
At the start you must fit, you have to learn a new language, a new lifestyle, a new culture...after you can make the choice that let change you life radically. You could be what you want and this is awesome.

Andnowthe question is: How everyone can be prepared about this?
Well, thisis very difficult to explain, I can start asking why you want to go abroad, because it is a very strong decision, maybe a lot of people will try to change your mind, but you don't have to listen to them, if you are sure, go on and don't stop.
Well, maybe somethimes you feel inside that you are doing something wrong, it is normale because this will change you and your life, because you are scared about this, change everything, be alone, and feeling so sad; maybe you will cry, you will cry a lot, but I repat,you could be scared.

I was scared about changing everything, but it bring you to a better step.
So, don't be scared to ask something...I will reply at all your question. :)

It's too hard to say goodbye

Today I went to Victoria Station to say goodbye to my housemate. We were 6 people, 2 housemates, to friends, me and Laura, the housemate.
She is comingback to Italy, she stayed here more than 2 months, but she didn't find a job, so she went back to Italy.

It was very hard to say goodbye, it was very hard to see her get in the bus to Stansted. She will miss us, she was part of the "English family".

I hope to see her again here in London. :)

Good Luck Laura :)

Everytime is like the first time

I am very lucky this week, I have 3 days off, that I can spend going to see all new things in all the city.

It means that I can go where I want, to see what I haven’t see yet, but there is a problem (if it could be called), some friends come from Italy to visit London, and obviously, to meet me once again. So I could bring them with me. Today, we went to Madame Tussaud, and it was amazing. A lot of characters, a lot of fun and a place where you could be scared by real people. It was so funny, and really really really amazing. I have never seen something like that, and I think I will go there again (even if spending 30 pounds could be very expensive for me actually).

Probably I will go there again when my family come here to see me, if they will come, sure!

Well, actually I can say that London makes me falling in love. It’s a wonderful place, full of life and full of interesting things and every time you see them it is like the first time.

I will explain with an example, London Tower, the awesome bridge, I have never seen it like that, full of lights, with something magic in the air. It was breathtaking.

Tomorrow, my last off day of the week, I will go to the Science Museum, Trafalgar Square, Buckingham Palace, Green Park, Hyde Park, and a lot of other things, but I can not forget Hard Rock Cafè, Harrodds (again), British Museum, Natural History Museum…oh my God, too many things to see in only one day…XD…SO I go to sleep, see you at the next post….bye…

Do you need an help? No, I will reach my objective on my own

Hi readers, I have to speak with someone who can listen without saying nothing, I need someone who can understand me, but it's hard.
Today I knew that my housemate will come back to her countr, because she is tired to stay here, she is tired of all this.
At this house we are a lot of people, only 5 have a job, all other are looking for it. It is very difficult help someone who does nothing to stay. Well, I was so lucky, but I try to imagine myself in theri situation. If I was been here looking for a job I'd walk a lot, I send a lot of CV and I'd try with all my strenght to find a f***ing job that let me stay here more than 2 months. I think that they haven't understood it, because they are loosing their own respect.
I tryed to speak with them but they didn't listen to me. And now I am tired, I am tired to hear someone complain.
Everybody who comes in a new country without knowing the language has to start from the ground to reach the top. Noone gives the perfect job opportunity. I am sure that I wouldn't like to be a waiter for all my life, but if it let me make my English perfect, I will work like waiter for 1 or maybe 2 years.

Now talking about something different, we have to talk about a place where I have never been before: HARRODS.

I cannot believe that Harrods is a very very very big shopping center (for rich people), an example, in Harrods you can find for the cheapest price of 6,995 pounds:

 Every person could have one of this in their house. I have bought it!... -.-"

So the place is very big...inside this shopping center there are evry kind of things, from toys to t...

I don't know how much it cost, but I think a lot....
And after this I can sa good night to every body.....
At the next post. ;)

Sometimes it happen

Sometimes a person is lucky, this was my time. Finally I have found a job, near my house, I have something new to do, I have something that make me feel happy.
Finally London starts to be my country, my real country, where I can find myself, where I can be what I want to be, where I can say what I want to say and where my dreams start to become true.
Actually I feel so tired, working keep me busy all day long, and my freetime is spent sleeping or staying in front of my computer, chatting with my friends but almost sleeping.
I never feel so tired, I don't know how, but I'm so tired. Fortunatelly I have some fantastic housemate that make me smile and laughting all the time, I love them.
But before all I'm here to talk about my lucky day, when I give my CV in that coffee shop they said that they weren't looking for anyone but after some days a person who worked there, leave without saying nothing so they started looking for a person who can start as soon as possibile.
So I get the job after a trial shift.

And now I have to wait another week to get the first pay packet because they pay two weeks after.

Now is time to sleep, my eyes start closing themselves  and tomorrow I have to wake up at 7 o' clock.
So good night to everbody reader
See you at the next post, or maybe at next interview.

That is amazing

I have never thought that a city could be so amazing, I have seen every kind of person, every kind of situation, and every kind of landscape.
This is a city that never sleep, in the center you can find all people laughing, sometimes they were drunk, sometimes you can see a person looking to other person to bring them in a disco pub, you can see every day foreigner.
Why do I want to stay here?
Because London is AMAZING!!!
You can not be tired about it, if you are tired of London you are tired of life.
This is a sentence that explain everything.
But for every kind of situation there is the downside. If you want to stay in London you will have to fit.

Finally London

Finalmente sono a Londra, da più di una settimana, ho trovato una camera, sebbene dopo diverse difficoltà, ho visto cose indecenti, ho visto camere che non possono essere considerate tali, ma poi, con difficiltà, ho trovato la casa giusta, con i coinquilini giusti.
Londra è Londra, non ti stanchi mai di girare e di vedere cose nnuove, sentire taaaante lingue diverse, persone da tutto il mondo. Tantissimi italiani, e tanti stranieri, tutti disposti ad aiutarti se ti perdi, l'unica cosa che mi è stata consigliata, quando si è in metro, autobus o si cammina per strada, non guardarsi in giro, camminare come se si fosse del luogo. ;)

per il resto, vi aggiornerò appena riesco. ;)


Finally I am in London, I'm here more than a week, I've found a room, even if with a lot of difficulties, I have seen indecent thingsm, I have seen bedroom that can not be considerate bedroom, but i have finally found the right bedroom, with the right flatmate.
London is London, you can not be tired to go around and see new things, hearing a lot of different languages, seeing people of all the world. A lot of italians, and a lot of foreigner, all help you if you need or if you lost in the city looking for a street os something similar. The only thing that has been recommended is that when you are in the underground, or in a bus, or when you are walking on the street, you have not to look around, you have to walk like an English man will do, you will not to seem a tourist

for the rest, I will keep you update. ;)

Il tempo è vicino

Finally I left this country...finally I will start a new life, that will be my adventure.
I have bought the flight ticket, London I will be there till the end of January.

I have started to think about what I will bring with me, in my bags. What I have to bring with me, and what I don't have to take?
It seems so easy, but not...I always thought about this, but I never thought that could be very very hard, not all my friends know about my travel, because I think that they could treat me in a different way, and I don't want it. I will tell it to them next Friday, when we will be all together to celebrate our friends who goes to Copenhagen for the ERASMUS.
After that we all see the video that our friends and I make for him, I will say to everybody that she will be the only person who will leave them.
It's a very difficult sentence to say, but the have to know it....Probably with this phrase the party will be the worst party ever..but I have to try.
Less than 2 weeks between me and London, I can not wait. I always dreamed it.

Perchè partire???

Parla un uomo che ha cambiato vita, che ha cambiato lingua, è ripartito da zero!

 Dopo tempo in cui continuavo a pensare sulla cosa, sono riuscito a scovare della gente italiana che come me, ha deciso di trasferisi in UK, ho posto loro alcune domande, per capire meglio la situazione pretrasferimento e post trasferimento.
Ho fatto le stesse medesime domande a più persone, per vedere le differenze, le difficoltà incontrate prima e dopo, per capire la situazione che ora è in UK e far capire la situazione in Italia, sempre in preggioramento.

Ecco infatti l'esperienza di Edmondo, un uomo che a 48 anni, si è ritrovato a dover cambiare radicalmente la sua vita.
Ecco con una presentazione iniziale.
"Ciao, sono Edmondo, ho 50 anni e vivo a Nottigham, attualmente convivo, ho 7 figli anche se non sono tutti qui con me, la tua richiesta di intervista mi ha colpito, e per questo ti dico che non sono in UK da una vita, sono qui appena da 15 mesi, e attualmente sono disoccupato".
La cosa che mi ha colpito della sua storia è stata la risposta a una domanda: "Cosa ti ha spinto ad andare a vivere all'estero?"
La risposta anche se di per se inizialmente breve è stata: "In Italia la vita è diventata insostenibile".
Sono andato allora alla ricerca di una specifica a questa risposta, facendomi raccontare il perchè la sua vita fosse diventata insostenibile, ecco cosa ha risposto:

"Per lavoro ero costretto a cambiare spesso città (sempre nel territorio Italiano) , un po' per la crisi un po' per il malgoverno e soprattutto con l'avvento dei cinesi la ditta per cui lavoravo chiuse. Mi sono ritrovato così senza lavoro, provai la strada di una nuova attività, la aprii nel 2009, lavoravo oltre le 18 ore al giorno (7 giorni su 7)  per rientrare con i costi, poi la crisi ha portato sempre meno introiti fino a quando ero arrivato alla condizione in cui faticavo ad pagare l'affitto, a causa di tasse, e sovrattasse e molte altre cose che si sono accavallate tra loro. Le cose poi non sono migliorate, tra Equitalia e sfratto per morosità sono arrivato al punto che con 7 figli e una moglie e soprattutto a 48 anni dovevo andare a vivere per strada elemosinando, e diciamocelo, nessuno vorrebbe farlo. Quindi strada per strada mi son giocato anche la mia ultima carta e sono approdato in UK senza essere a conoscenza di cosa mi sarebbe capitato o cosa avrei trovato."

Così una domanda mi sorse spontanea: "Come ti trovi in UK ora?"

La sua risposta mi ha messo il sorriso: "Non ho grandi comodità attualmente, ma riesco a fare una vita dignitosa in una casa e almeno riesco a mettere sul tavolo un piatto caldo, soprattutto credere in un futuro migliore per i miei due ultimi bambini di tenera età. Gli altri miei bambini, ormai ragazzi grandi, che erano rimasti in Italia con calma stanno decidendo di raggiungermi."

Ogni tanto la fortuna gira

Salve lettori, sono qui per darvi una buona notizia, come avrete capito anche dal titolo del post, ogni tanto la fortuna gira...
Penso di essere stato un po' fortuna ora, girando su un sito di aupair, ho mandato la candidatura a una famiglia, e loro sono interessati a conoscermi e ad avermi come loro aupair.
Martedì ho parlato tramite videochiamata skype con la famiglia, abbiamo fatto mezz'ora di conversazione in inglese, non è stato per nulla semplice capire quello che mi diceva, ma comunque è stato molto bello, sebbene io fossi agitatissimo abbiamo discusso un po', sul perchè io voglia diventare un ragazzo alla pari, sul fatto che lì avrei dovuto imparare a stirare e a fare la lavatrice (ebbene sì, qui a casa non ho mai fatto nulla di questo)...avrei dovuto imparare, ma non mi fa paura, la madre dei ragazzi mi ha addirittura detto che il suo attuale aupair, ha imparato a stirare da un video su youtube per cui, un nerd come me può sicuramente imparare in fretta.
Fare il ragazzo alla pari non è facile, non parlo per esperienza personale, ma parlo per sentito dire, soprattutto all'inizio quando non si parla molto bene la lingua, non si conosce nessuno e si deve imparare a comprendere le necessità della famiglia, e la routine della famiglia, portare i bimbi a calcio, judo, nuoto e tutto il resto, e infine spartire il proprio tempo "libero" tra faccende in casa e lezione a scuola, perchè sì, a scuola dovrei pure andare per imparare la lingua ancora più velocemente. Fortunatamente questa cosa non mi fa paura!!!
Di tutta la videochiamata ho visto il maggiore dei 3 bimbi, che mi ha salutato con la mano ha fatto una domanda alla madre e poi se ne è andato.
Attualmente sto aspettando una risposta dalla famiglia, per capire se la mezz'oretta a parlare ha dato i suoi frutti o meno. Speriamo di si, nel frattempo io mi preparo e parlo inglese con gli amici, in chat di whatsapp e beh, la cosa è degenerata e abbiamo iniziato ad insultarci pesantemente in tutte le lingue del mondo, non credevo fosse possibile...XD

Per cui attendiamo, e vediamo...incrociamo le dita  ;)

Ed ora vi auguro la buonanotte e vado a dormire...



Hello readers, I am here to give you a good news, as you may understand from the title of the post, sometimes the luck turns...I think I was a little lucky, turning on an aupair-site, I sent the application to a family, and they are interested to know me and have me as their aupair.On Tuesday I spoke via videocall skype with the family, we did half-hour conversation in English, it was not at all easy to understand what she was saying, but it was however very nice, although I was a bit agitated we discussed a little bit about why I want to become an aupair, that there I would have to learn to iron and do laundry (yes, here at home I have never done anything of this) ... I had to learn, but I'm not afraid , the mother of the boys told me that their current aupair has learnt to iron from a video on youtube so, a nerd like me can definitely learn quickly.
Making the au pair is not easy, I do not speak from personal experience, but I speak from hearsay, especially at the beginning when you do not speak the language very well, do not know anyone and you must learn to understand the needs and routine of the family, taking the kids to soccer, judo , swimming and everything else, and then share their "free" time between chores at home and at school lesson, because yes, I also go to school to learn the language more faster. Fortunately, this thing does not scare me!
Of all the video I saw the eldest of three children, who greeted me with her hand asked a question to the mother and then he is gone .
I am currently waiting for a response from the family, to see if the half hour talking about has paid off or not. We hope so, in the meantime I prepare myself and I speak English with friends, chatting with whatsapp and well, the thing is degenerate and we started to insult heavily in all languages ​​of the world, do not think it was possible ... XD
So we wait and see...fingers crossed ;)
And now I wish you good night and go to sleep...

Cosa vorreste cambiare di voi stessi?...What would you like to change about yourself?

Buongiorno lettori, qui piove, e fortunatamente è stata una bella giornata, passata con i miei cuginetti andando ovunque giocando insieme e ridendo e scherzando...
Oggi  passerò tutto il resto della giornata sul divano, non ho voglia di alzarmi, devo rilssarmi, domani sarà un'altra giornata di lavoro stancante a lavorare anche per quello che sebbene abbiamo poco più del mio grado, sta seduto davanti al PC ad osservare lo schermo, senza nemmeno muovere il puntatore, e dire che la sua busta è pure parecchio gonfia!!!
Ma ahimè questa è l'Italia, dove la gente che di soldi già ne ha, si lamenta perchè ne vuole di più, e io ormai dopo solo un mese e mezzoho capito come vanno le cose lì, ho capito che devo lavorare anche per lui, perchè lui non può fare fatica, perchè non può chinarsi a causa dei suoi muscoli alle gambe (anzichè a causa della enorme pancia), perchè lui è troppo stanco anche solo per stare in piedi infatti ogni volta che parla con qualcuno si appoggia dove può.
Non ce la faccio più, voglio cambiare la mia vita in modo drastico, non voglio dover essere trattato come schivo da chi nemmeno si sforza di spiegarmi cosa fare e come fare il mio lavoro. Io voglio vivere la mia vita, non voglio continuare ad andare avanti senza poter cambiare le cose.
Io voglio cambiare le cose, voglio poter scegliere da me cosa fare, come farle, quando farle. Per questo di me cambiere qualcosa, il mio carattere non lo cambierei mai, mi fa essere ciò che sono ora, avrò i miei difetti, ma o mi aprrezzate per quello che sono oppure quella è la porta, potete anche andarvene, io non cambio carattere per nessuno.
Ora, io di me cambierei due cose, i miei capelli, sono troppo crespi e indomabili, fanno veramente schifo se sono troppo lunghi, e se sono troppo corti non riesco ad acconciarli, spero che i miei figli non avranno i miei capelli...XD
Poi beh, ognuno ha le sue motivazioni, io ho le mie, perchè appunto non riuscendo a domare la mia chioma, vorrei poterla domare, per essere più bello dato che il mio fisico non mi fa apparire così bello. ;)

Dai, magari per stasera vi posto qualche altra immagine, nel frattempo vi posto qualche immaginina trovata girando per internet alla ricerca di sfondi per il mio portatile...

Partiamo con Edimburgo...

 

continuamo con una tigre spaziale...XD

Il mio segno zodiacale..

Beh dai, penso possa bastare, per oggi pomeriggio, mi metto a guardare la tv, e a fare i miei controlli da nerd di qualche gioco online, per cui a stasera o a domani...buona giornata a tutti. ;)

Chiudo con una domanda....

Cosa vorreste cambiare di voi?

Hello readers, it's raining here , and fortunately it was a good day spent with my cousins ​​playing together and going everywhere laughing and joking ...
Today we 'll spend the rest of day on the couch , I did not want to get up , I rilssarmi , tomorrow will be another tiring day at work to work for that too that although we have little more of my degree , is sitting in front of the PC to look at the screen , without even moving the pointer , and say that the its envelope is also quite swollen !
But alas this is Italy , where the people of that money already has , he complains because he wants more, and I now after only a month and mezzoho understand how things are going there, I realized that I have to work even for him, because he can not do hard work , why can not stoop to Because of its muscles in the legs (instead because of the huge belly) , because he is too tired even to stand in fact every time I talk to someone leans wherever he can.
Do not take it anymore , I want to change my life dramatically , I do not need to be treated as self-effacing by those who even tries to explain to me what to do and how to do my job. I want to live my life , I will not continue to move forward without being able to change things.
I want to change things , I want to choose for myself what to do, how to do it , when to do them. For this cambiere me something , my character would not change anything, makes me what I am now , I will have my flaws , but I aprrezzate or for what they are or there's the door , you can also go away , I do not change character for anyone.
Now, I would change two things about me , my hair is too frizzy and unruly , do they really suck if they are too long , and if they are too short, I can not acconciarli , I hope that my children will not have my hair ... XD
Then well , everyone has his reasons , I have mine , because in fact failing to tame my hair , I would be able to tame , to be more beautiful because my body does not make me look so beautiful. ;)

Come on, maybe tonight I'll post some other image , in the meantime I'll post some immaginina found wandering around the internet looking for wallpapers for my laptop ...

Let's start with Edinburgh ...

going on with a space tiger...

and at the end....my zodiac sign...

Well come on , I think that's enough for this afternoon , I'm going to watch TV, and make my controls to be some nerd game online, so tonight or tomorrow ... good day to you all . ;) 

 

I close with a question ....

 

What would you like to change about yourself? 

Edimburgo arrivooooo...

Fremono  preparativi, io e il mio nuovo amico abbiamo trovato il volo...martedì o al massimo mercoledì si paga il volo, partenza da Milano e poi via diretti verso Edimburgo...non vedo l'ora....
ora googlando Edimburgo mi esce questo:

Beh, immagine spettacolare, niente da dire, per cui inizio ad essere ansioso. Giorno dopo giorno scorro la lista degli appartamenti disponibili a Edimburgo, i lavori possibili. Ho già tradotto il mio CV da tempo, e ora si inizia a migliorare l'inglese ascoltando programmi inglesi, canzoni inglesi, video in inglese...il mio inglese deve certamente migliorare.

Volevo farvi notare un video visto da un'altro sito qui.
Vorrei tornare...ma non posso!!!
Questi ragazzi spiegano per filo e per segno le grosse problematiche che ci sono in Italia.....non l'avrei mai detto ma sono pienamente d'accordo con loro....e voglio essere uno di loro...voglio fuggire da questo paese, voglio cambiare radicalmente la mia vita...e questo è il primo passo. ;)


Preparations quiver, my new friend and I found a flight ... Tuesday or Wednesday to the maximum we will pay for the flight, departing from Milan and then headed to Edinburgh...Can not wait ....

Googling Edinburgh I get this:

Well, spectacular image, nothing to say, so starting to get anxious. Day after day I watch and watch again the list of available apartments in Edinburgh, the job advertisment. I have already translated my CV for some time, and now I have to start to improve my English,  listening to English programs, English songs, whatching English videos and films... should certainly improve my English.

I wanted to point out a video seen here from another site.

I would go back ... but I can not! (they speak Italian)

These guys explain to the thread and sign the big problems we have in Italy ..... I would never have said but I fully agree with them .... and I want to be one of them ... I want to run away from this country, I want to radically change my life ... and this is the first step. ;)

Siamo pronti?

Finalmente sono riuscito a dirlo a mio padre, gli ho detto che il 20 gennaio io partirò per Edimburgo, che lui lo voglia o no.
La sua risposta inizialmente non è stata molto positiva, mi ha detto infatti: "La vita è tua, fai quello che voi, ma secondo me sbagli e perdi tempo e soldi per niente".
Ora invece ne abbiamo parlato ancora, e ho capito che ha paura di farmi partire completamente solo, infatti mi ha detto che così da solo, senza nessuno a cui potermi appoggiare in caso di difficoltà, o con cui poter parlare è veramente rischioso, mi ha chiesto infatti se posso trovare qualcuno che parte con me, in modo da arrivare lì ed essere in compagnia e non da solo. Ho già trovato una persona che parte più o meno lo stesso periodo, e quindi partiremo insieme anche se da due posti diversi.
Per cui posso dirlo...sono pronto!!!

Perchè non vogliono lasciarci andare?

Ho appena chiesto a mio padre se mi lascerebbe scappare via da qui per andare da parenti in Australia, beh, l'ha presa parecchio male, dicendomi di aspettare per capire cosa vogliono fare dove lavoro ora, che comunque anche se sono da alcuni parenti dovrei comunque pagarmi tutto, e arrangiarmi in tutto. Io ho replicato dicendo che non ho paura di questo, che per pagarmi tutto ho i miei soldi che sto mettendo da parte, mio padre per farmi restare ancora qui mi ha detto che per il passaporto ci vogliono 90 giorni e ha tirato fuori altre balle astronomiche.

Io voglio andarmene da qui, non ce la faccio più, la mia vita qui è solo un susseguirsi di vicende. Io voglio arrivare a scrivere la mia vita, senza pensare al passato, voglio arrivare a vivere la mia vita, a decidere cosa fare, dove andare, con chi stare, cosa mangiare, cosa bere...
Non so se qualcuno di voi può capirlo, ma la cosa è parecchio strana, almeno per un ragazzo della mia età, che ad appena 22 anni, ha già deciso cosa farà della sua vita. Come si fa a continuare a vivere una vita monotana in cui la tua famiglia non ti lascia fare i tuoi sbagli, a lasciarti decidere per la tua vita??


I've just asked to my father if he would me go away from here to go to relatives in Australia, well...he took it so bad, he said that I have to wait what my head of work want to do where I am working now, he said that however if I will go to relatives I have however to pay everything and fend at all. I have replyed that I have no fear about that, to pay everything I have my money, my dad to let me stay here has said that for passport it needs 90 days and after he has said other big lies.

I want to leave this place, I cannot do it anymore, my life here is just a succession of events. I want to write my life, without thinking about the past, I want to live my life, to decide what to do, where to go, whom to stay, what to eat, what to drink ...
I don't know if someone can understand, but the thing is pretty weird, at least for a guy of my age, which is just 22, has already decided what he will do in his life. How do you continue to live a monotonuos life where your family will not let you make your own mistakes, to let you decide for your life?

Decide

Well, I have decide...I'll leaveItaly on 20th of January, I'll go to London for 2 days and after I'll leave London for going to Edinburgh. :)

The airline ticket will cost less and I will have the time to visit London or something in the city, yep it will cost more than I expected but London is a city that must be visit. A friend told me that London has something of magic that be in tourist heart forever.

Well, I haven't told to my dad that I'll leave Italy, I think that I have to prepare all and after say to him.
I've found the hostel, I've found the flight, I have only to reserve everything so all will done. ;)
It's not so easy to do all in the same hour, or in the same day...it's one of the most difficult thing I have  to do in my life...jump from a bridge of 176 meter was a breeze, yep I've done bunjee jumpingthe highest bunjee in Italy, the second in Europe. It's like be free, it's like fly, only for a second I'll be alone, making something crazy, touching sky, making a breath. It was amazing, but my fear of height has done a good work, it was hard looking down before jump and doing angel jump...like that...

Yep...it seems crazy but t isn't...It's awesome.

So during the lunch I'll say to my dad everything, if I'm able to do..

Give me lucky...XD

Where are we going?

Ok, I have talked to a lot of people throught facebook, and more I talk to someone about the travel, more I want to change city where I will go....XD...
It's impossibile that everytime I will find a possible city, someone write on a group on Facebook that there are some difficult about something or with certain people....bah...I can't believe in that...

Well....I'm really thinking that I will go to London for 1 week, I want to visit the city...London Bridge, Big Bang, London Eye, the Wax Museum....Yeah...I have to visit it...I cannot wait...

It's just like a dream that will be true....
I have a phrase tattooed on my left arm, that talk about dreams, because dreams have to be reached, dreams have to become reality, and if you have dreams, your life is not like you want... ;)

Sometime I think that in my life something is missing, but I'm not able to understand what, I hope to understand what when I'll left Italy, when my life will start to live again, when I'll start to write my life, but when will it happen?

I've just choosen the date...20th of January, yeah, less than 90 days....

The way I'll follow will be full of difficulties, but if you want you can passall difficulties...right?


Tell me what difficulties you will have to pass in your life, you could talk to me in private and have your own post. :) (all with privacy if you want ;)   )

Making Crazy

ok...I' m going crazy...I can not believe that in my family there are persons who believe that I alway scream instead speak...I do not scream, I speak using words that let me be superior, because I'm superior, I think to my life, I want to live my life better than their, and I can't let them say what I have to do...I want to be free to decide everything about my life, because my life is mine...not their....

I want to scream like that:

but if I do it i will be alone....I'm just alone...I have to change....
I have to breathe and go on....alone...
I have grown alone, that let me grow up mentally...I reason about everything....

Try to change my life

Today I have finally find the strenght to buy the airline ticket....I have just choosen the date I will left Italy (yes, I'm italian, yes I speak and write English not perfectly but I try ;)  )

I was going to the web site to buy the ticket, I have added all details name, surname, address and method of payment, but when was the time to click buy, the Internet connection doesn't work.

Could it be a sign of destiny or not?

For me not, because I know that if it will not be tomorrow, it will be the day after.

I have to start a new life, I have to change my life so radically because here my life is not like I want.

I know that in future I'll be abroad (UK or USA or Australia), I'll be married with two or more children, and I know, those will be my life.

A lot of people who know me think that I'm to young to know what will happen to my life, but I feel it inside me. I cannot explain that because it a different feeling.

With this little post I say you goodnight. ;)

Tomorrow I have to work.

Why a lot of guys want to go away...

Hi to everybody...starting saying that I know that  lot of people are bored in their own country, but why do we want to go away?
My parents don't believe that I'd know where my life is going, my life will bring me away, they don't believe that I could find the strenght to buy a fu***ng flight ticket to go away, but they know that I want to do that. Noone believe in me...I remeber the day when a friend says me: "When you go away...when you are on the plane....and after you have bought the plane ticket, call me...I will drink for you because I'm  non-drinker and I'm sure I will never drink for that!"

Well, those phrase hurts me a lot, because it let me understand that I'm really alone here...noone call me, noone write to me, noone ask me how am I...but why?

My life was been so difficult since I was a child, because my parents have divorced when I was 8 yo, and after that I can say I have had to grow up by myself.

And now, all of them are asking me why I want to go away??? I cannot belive...it means that they don't know me very well.

I have spoken with a lot of people who left their country to going away to work...and the reasons are always the same...there is no work, we cannot buy something to eat for my kids, there is too much tax to pay and I can not work for 18 hours per day to get 800€ per month...that's unbelievable.

So, the first question that I want to tell you readers is:

Have you ever think about how could be your life if you go abroad?